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feeeeeatured

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so I have some time to kill today, so why not try one of these things...

  • The first 20 people that comment on this journal will be featured below and I'll choose three deviations I like most from their gallery! (I'll try to add a little comment from me)
  • If you comment, you must to do this thingy in your journal too, putting the tagger (me) and three pieces of my art at the top.
  • The idea of this is not to get a free feature, it is to spread art around, share with more people, expose yourself and not get arrested for it!


1.  :iconcultistcarl:
At the bottom of the sea by JekJekyll Cthulhu and Cuttlefish by JekJekyllCubix Snake by JekJekyll
everyone loves cthulu, right?  and he looks so happy with his lil cuttlefishies!  and I love tone and light on the cubix snake, real nice.

2)  :icongoreworks-6:

Bubbles by Redsam6 Blood Born by Redsam6 Relax by Redsam6
Sam has his own style, his own mad, twisted, freakish surreal style.  I loves him.

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I am a 41 year old man, with no children and no plans for any (luckily my wife feels the same way), I rent my home, hold down an entry level job that gives me a decent but not impressive income (and allows me to draw to my hearts content, as is seen here on DevArt!).

I have no responsibilities, really.  This is a good thing, for me at least.

I can't deal with stress and responsibility.  I DON'T deal with stress.  My mind panics, shuts down, disappears off into a darkened corner where it turns to jelly beneath a thick comfort blanket, and all it can say is "NoNoNoNoNo" just like that cat on youtube.

14 years ago, I think I had a nervous breakdown.  Panic attacks, reluctant to leave the house, all I could do was listen to the radio and curl up in a ball in my bedroom (fortunately I was still living with my parents at this time, and they were extremely understanding).  I lost my job, saw a doctor, took the happy pills, but kept my girlfriend, and without my then girlfriend, I may never have met my wife (that's another whole story!).  I eventually pulled myself out of this, changed the whole course of my life as well as my outlook.

Depression is a constant battle, feeling that black dog breathing down my neck and trying to keep a step or two ahead of it, and despite a couple of bad patches, I'm still around.

I've just had a really bad week.  As my car slowly began to break down (this has been over the past few months, but it finally came to a head this week), it dragged me down with it.  Understand that I have no interest in cars.  I mean, ZERO interest.  The mechanics of a car are alien to me, my mind just won't work in those ways.  Talk to me about cars and I hear you like Charlie Brown hears adults.

It's all sorted out now, thanks to my saint of a wife, Jennifer (she's sorted out the financing and basically done everything that leads to a new (to us) car outside), and I can't thank her enough, but that's not what this is about.  In my rambling way I wanted to point out that my mind shuts down when it's confronted with a) stress, and b) something I have no interest in.  

My mind is out of that darkened corner now, but it's still clutching the blanket to it's chin... just in case.

Thanks if you read that, apologies it kinda led nowhere!
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Thanks!

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I have been very lax lately on here, thanking people for the views and the favourites.  So if you've viewed or favourite, then THANK YOU! It's always appreciated.
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Scary books...

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... on the back of that last post, here's a nice list if you're looking for something scary to read leading up to Halloween...

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(...and yeah, I have decided to post more journals here.  Can you tell?)

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